November's Close

I feel like the last post pretty much sums up my November...
A lot of things have happened this month. A mix of feelings, internal conflicts, questions asked (to myself), things to consider, values that have changed.
This school year has been quite a ride so far. But it comes to a close with thanksgiving, black friday shopping with friends, dinners with family, many people's birthdays, an interlude of finals, and unwinding back with winter break and ssc. Spiritually it's been a coaster. I have so much to change. I'm not ready for anything. It's by God's grace that I am still in church.

Father,
You've taught me a lot,
You've shown me a lot,
I've let you down a lot,
I've forsaken you a lot,

but You keep me going.
So let me keep on going.
Your mercy endureth forever and ever.

Carnivore

The beast is so hard to tame...
Such a carnivore.

It closes it's ears, turns away it's eyes as it gets distracted from the way up.
Though the beast is relentless, it cries, "Relent!"
Though the beast puts some mittens on, he sharpens his claws.
Though the beast pronounces himself vegetarian, he's secretly seasonal.
Though the beast refuses to put the meat near his mouth, he'll enjoy the smell.

He looks nothing like his Father...
Nonetheless, the beast continues to make it's way to the top. There is no other way, there is no other path this beast wants to take. He wants to go home.